something about that tozer fellow

- so im still reading this book and the more i pick it up the more my heart is broken. i found myself nearly in tears today. i know that my own sinfulness is so very evident in my life to those around me and yet i am constantly aware of my judgmental outlook at things that i have seen in my life before. what im reading has just been a slap across the face. God places things in our lives that do that all the time, but this time he gave it brass knuckles.

- it excites me that this book is so filled with truth. i know that the guys are going to love picking it apart. i also know that this is something that i need in my life. our personal experiences with God are our only way of knowing him and his character. truth born out of rote and lecture, even scripture can only teach so much outside of real intimacy with God.

- i want to pursue God with my prayers, my lifestyle, and my ambassadorship for Christ to with whom he has blessed me to come in contact. accomplishing that is directly related to murdering the pride and possessiveness in my heart. my selflessness is necessary for the visibility of Christ in my life. the passage i want to share from The Pursuit of God says what we so often need regarding what is necessary to overcome ourselves better than i can ever hope to:

"The ancient curse will not go out painlessly; the tough old miser within us will not lie down and die obedient to our command. He must be torn out of our heart like a plant from the soil; he must be extracted in agony and blood like a tooth from the jaw. He must be expelled from our soul by violence as Christ expelled the money changers from the temple. And we shall need to steel ourselves against his piteous begging, and to recognize it as springing out of self-pity, one of the most reprehensible sins of the human heart."

- A. W. Tozer
from: The Pursuit of God

- something to think about anyway. we have a constant need to overcome ourselves and what our all too natural tendencies lend themselves toward. we are in need of humility; humility will only come as a result of painful displacement of our pride and possessiveness. we are never entitled to anything other than an audience with a God who desires to bless us without reservation or rationing.

-Roses